Lockdown Journal: Day 41 (My Airing of Grievances)

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It’s Day 41 of the South African lockdown. Today I would like to air my grievances.

Hadeda in the garden
Lockdown photo 41: A hadeda in my garden.

For those of you unfamiliar with the concept, the “Airing of Grievances” was made famous by Seinfeld character Frank Costanza in the 1990s. The Airing of Grievances usually takes place during the fake holiday of Festivus, on 23 December. Festivus the holiday has its own website with a page devoted to the Airing of Grievances.

We’re nowhere near Festivus season, but I think COVID-19 deserves an Airing of Grievances all its own. Here I go:

  1. Exercising under lockdown sucks. I can’t skip rope due to a persistently sore achilles tendon. Running – or even walking fast – while wearing a mask is impossible. Apparently running in a “buff” (I hate that word, it makes me want to barf) is easier, and while I’ve received countless “buffs” at various races and events over the years, I can no longer find any of them. Hence I am still run-walking laps around my home for cardio exercise.
  2. Yesterday Caxton Publishing announced it is closing its magazine business, which is terrible news for all of the people working for the ten prominent South African magazines that will now cease to be published. South African magazine publishing has been in trouble for a long time and this may have happened eventually even without COVID-19, but…ugh.
  3. As of Lockdown Week 6, I officially have too many gray hairs to individually count/yank out.
  4. My horned melons refuse to ripen.
  5. South Africans continue to starve. Meanwhile the government is making it harder for charities to distribute food.
  6. People are constantly ranting on Facebook about everything and I hate it (even though I myself also do this).
  7. I can’t think about my future, or the country’s future, or the world’s future. I can hardly think about anything, in fact, without feeling sad and panicky and scared. And yet I have more time to think than ever before. It’s torture.
  8. My house and garden are a mess and I know I need to spend a full day housecleaning and another full day gardening to solve these problems but I also know I will probably never do either of those things and I hate myself for it.
  9. I miss my friends but I’m tired of video calls.
  10. I don’t know when I’ll be able to see my family again.
  11. I stopped hugging my tree because it has too many ants.
  12. I want to go out and do things, but shopping is the only thing we’re allowed to do. I don’t like shopping. I can’t afford shopping. And also stores seem like the best place to go right now if you want to catch COVID-19.
  13. I feel really down most of the time, as I’m sure most everyone does, and I’m tired of it and don’t see when or how it will change.

I think 13 grievances is enough for now. And I actually do feel slightly better! If you have any grievances you’d like to air, please comment. Unlike Frank Costanza does, just try to direct your grievances at COVID-19 and not any particular person or institution.

Since I don’t want this post to be 100% negative, here are two things I’m grateful for:

  1. A pair of hadedas visited the garden yesterday and let me photograph them before flying away.
Hadedas are often around in the garden, pecking away at the ground, but I find them extremely difficult to photograph. I’m grateful to these two for such a lovely pose.
  1. Last night I ordered food from a restaurant – Thai food from Bamboo Thai – for the first time in nearly six weeks. It was incredibly exciting the food exceeded my expectations.
Thai food from Bamboo Thai
Chicken pad Thai and prawn summer rolls with peanut sauce – so spicy and delicious. Pardon the bad photo but it was dinner time and nearly dark. Bamboo Thai is available on Uber Eats and Mr. Delivery in the Melville area.

Sorry I didn’t address the COVID-19 statistics today, as I said I would yesterday. The grievances took precedence. I’ll catch up tomorrow.

Today’s Worthy Cause

Today I’m featuring Food Flow SA. I don’t know a ton about this organization but I saw a post about it on Find the Locals, which I encourage you all to follow.

As I understand it, Food Flow is working to support small South African farms – which normally supply food to restaurants but obviously can’t do so right now – to help the farms stay afloat and also get the food they’re growing to people facing food insecurity. You can donate by purchasing a bag of food, which will go from the farms to various food distribution programs around the country.

I love the idea of helping small farms and hungry people at the same time. Instructions for how to donate are here.